I am thoroughly confused. I used to be able to come up with a plan but now I feel like I’m floating through space. I’m confused because I can’t figure it out. Depression doesn’t help when it comes to decision making. Medication makes me feel numb, while not taking it makes me feel everything. The balance is off.
Where do I go from here? Every day seems like the one before and I’m going nowhere. I need a goal and a hobby. Right now my life is pretty pathetic and vacuous. I know I will figure everything out, I always do. The “figuring it out” journey is long and painful at times, but it’s doable.
It’s bothering me that my relationships have suffered so much during this phase of my life. I’m just simply trying to survive my bromidic life.