Need Some Fun In My Life

I took a little break from my meds recently. BIG MISTAKE. It always is. I felt better without them at first, but that was just the mania. I should know better. The crash was bad. Really fucking bad. I should have been hospitalized a few times but I rode it out.
When you don’t have insurance you go to the state-funded hospital. It’s no bueno. So I basically haven’t left my bedroom in 2 months. I haven’t really left the bed in 2 months. I am taking my meds now and feeling much better I am happy to report.

Now I need to get out of here! The problem is I have nowhere to go. I don’t really have friends anymore and my family doesn’t really have much to do with me either. Ahhhhhh!!! I’m sure I will figure something out. I’m almost desperate at this point just to do something.

I began this blog partly out of boredom. It fills the time. But, I need some ideas so this is what I came up with..

1. Play air guitar to all my favorite song

2. Memorize lyrics to my favorite songs

3. Contemplate the meaning of life

4. Organize my closet ( blah )

5. Organize my closet ( blah )

6. Study quantum physics and try to understand it

7. Paint a picture

8. Read a novel

9. Write a novel

10. Sing

11. Knit something

12. Study the Bible

13. Write a song

14. Play my drums

15. Make jewelry

16. Tie dye stuff

17. Make prank phone calls from a textnow number

18. Learn a British accent

19. Write a screenplay

20. Perform the screenplay ( for myself )

21. Build a fort

22. Take a Xanax and lay down ( my favorite )

23. Bake something

24. Clean something ( ugh )

25. Continue doing nothing and complain of boredom ( most likely outcome )

All of these are perfectly lovely choices, I just don’t feel like doing any of it. Yet, I want to do something. Are you seeing my dilemma? I probably drive my boyfriend crazy lol, poor guy. Well, I think I’ll take a nap.


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